Just to dance and blog. Standard members can contact me here.
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Jul 16, 2011 10:19 am
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I am just a girl looking to have a good time on cam and blogging. I enjoy life and having a good time. I am also a sucker for stimulating intellectual conversation (not just sexual, something that take intellect). I am mostly happily married.
I do not do CAM 2 CAM doesn't really do much for me. Sorry I just like to be watched, not to watch.
I enjoy blogging about my thoughts, personal experiences, my likes and dislikes, and shit that just pisses me off. Feel free to post or pipe in anytime. Standard members can contact me here so go for it. If you want to send me a message that only I can see, post it to this blog post.
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Taking a little break
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May 8, 2012 1:27 am
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So it is 1:00 am and I am taking a break from writing a 12 page marketing plan. I sure will be glad when this semester is over. It is winding down and I am very happy for that.
I missed the blogger's bash. I am sad that I didn't go, but things worked out for the better. Turns out my husband got let go of his job on Friday morning. It is a good thing I was here, I am sure it would have been a rough weekend for him if I was having fun doing who knows what in Chicago. We decided to get away from the craziness and go to palm spring and hang out at nude resort for a couple of days. I must say it was very much needed.
My Italian friend has also finally left. He was here for over a month. It was fun but, now there will be no more of me waking up at 2am running out of his hotel, just to go to mine.  that is an exhausting endevour. Fun, but still very tiring.
Before the week is out I should be back in my own condo. Hey!!!! I have been living in a hotel now for 39 days. Well, I must get back to my dreaded marketing plan. I would like to get a couple of hours in before 6am when I have to get up for work.
Later
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Progress Finally!!!!
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Apr 24, 2012 5:46 pm
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So for those of you that don't know I have been staying at a hotel for about 3 weeks because I water damage. So first week was assessing damage, second week the dry out, 3rd week picking a half-way trusty contractor, and now finally the work started today. I am stir crazy and tired. This is some exhausting shit. I think I have met with about 7 different contractors for one thing or another, plus I have been shopping for new bathroom.
So if you don't feel bad for me know, I am also in school taking 3 fucking classes. I know I would hate school before the end, but Damn!!! This would be the semester that I decided to push the envelope and take 3 classes. Eye-Yah-eye (have no idea how to spell that).
I am still in relatively good spirits, my Italian friend had also been in town for a month now. So with everything going on I have been making time to spend with him too. When he leaves I may not see him for 6-11 months, so I wanna make the most of the time I have him here.>>!  This is my only partner other than my husband that I actually do other stuff with. I don't see how players do it. It is exhausting having to share myself with two people, outside the bedroom, but it sure is fun.
Ok, I gotta go, but I am sure I will have to conjure up something to HNW tomorrow.
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It's just sex
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Apr 19, 2012 11:12 pm
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For me sex is just sex. Lately, I have had a couple of conversations and even read a couple of blogs regarding having an emotional connection with a sex partner. I don't need or really even desire to have some deep connection. I guess I am just weird that way. I do most of the time have to like the person, but that is not necessarily a requirement. I actually once had a booty call that I didn't care for. It was years ago, I had my own apartment and one of my close friend,s cousin whom I had known for years and really didn't care for much lived in the same complex with his GF. I am not even sure how it started. We both worked 3 shift and shortly after his GF left for work he would come over and we would get our groove on and he would leave. The sex was pretty damn good, although, he is not really someone I would want to spend time with outside the bedroom.
I can totally compartmentalize my sex, and emotional relationships. For me there are pretty black and white regardless of the number of times I have been with a person sexually. If the reason for our friendship is sex, then that is what I expect.
The two other major loves of my life before I was married, one I have never had sex with, and the other I was head over hills in love with him a year before we had sex. Then of course there is my husband whom I love very much. I just desire to have sex with others.
This is just the way I am wired. I don't know why, but I have for the most part been this way. There has only been onetime in my life that I was ever confused with love and sex. Now looking back on it I know it was just sex. Amazing, wonderful, multiple orgasmic sex. Yea, the sex was really so good, that I thought I was in love and I craved it like a drug.
Now, I will say there have been men in my life, that I have had a sexual relationship with, that I have really cared for and had that "connection" but for the most part those are far an few in-between.
So do you have to have a connection with someone to have a sexual relationship with them? Have you ever had sex or a sexual relationship with someone you didn't like?
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HNW bonus week
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Apr 18, 2012 7:43 am
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So I know I haven't been around much. I am still staying at the hotel. I will be here for a 2-3 more weeks. Life is crazy, but I am looking forward to the bash. I haven't took any pics lately, but lucky for you have a ton stored. So I went and picked some from the archives. Hope you enjoy!
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It's been a minute
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Apr 10, 2012 8:14 pm
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Yeah, I know it has been a minute since my last blog. My life is a little crazy right now. I am living in a hotel studio with my husband and 2 dogs. It is an ok place just not home. Last week, I was sooo sick, and my husband was a total and complete ass. He has been a sweetie this week, he even gave me a couple of nice orgasms.
One good thing is that is spring break, so no school this week, while I get used to my new digs at the hotel. I am thinking I will be here for about a month. Yeah, my condo is really fucked up...lol.
I am usually hakuna matata (song from lion king, it means no worries) kind person. I am not a real big stressor, I just go with the flow, but I must admit this last week has kinda gotten to me. Being sick, moving, arguing with hubby, even though there is no school this week I am thinking about all the shit the will be due. I have 3 major projects due next month in 3 different classes. This would be a good time to get a jump start, but I just can't get my head into it.
I know I will get it together. It may take a minute, but tomorrow I will be getting a massage!!!
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No, I am not NORMAL!!!!
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Apr 6, 2012 7:32 am
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I am not normal. Thanks for that update. Not! I have not tried to be what society deemed as normal since I was 12. At 38, I sure as hell not going to try and start now. Interesting thing happen to me when I was 11. The things most kids at my age thought were fun, I thought was senseless and trivial. I didn’t fit. Yea, I was there like most pre-teens in the world I was trying into some sort of box that society held for me. No matter how much I tried, I just wasn’t like other kids. My parents and the adults around me thought I was refreshing and mature, but to other kids I was just weird.
By the time I was in the 7th grade I was miserable, I had no friends, I didn’t fit into any social group or societal class. So I was alone. I felt so isolated from the entire rest of the world. Then after most of the school year had passed and I spent many nights crying myself to sleep. On day my dad came home early and I was alone listen to music, crying. He ask me what was wrong, I told him, that I didn’t fit. He went on to tell me that I don’t have to fit and that the only person that has to be ok with me is me. I don’t need approval from anyone and I shouldn’t seek approval from any one. I am the only person that counts in my world. I am paraphrasing what he said because, It was a long conversation, and it was over 20 years ago. Since that day on, I was ok with not being normal.
It is hard to explain, but the light came on that day for me. I am so fortunate to my dad, for coming home early that day. (Although, in hindsight, he probably just came home to smoke some weed...lol)
Society has a whole tried to pigeonhole people in these little boxes. Well, I don’t fit into any of the stereotypical box, so don’t try to put me there. I am not trying to be like anyone else or not do I want to. I just want to be the best me I can be, whatever that is. I live my life to make me happy, if you are in my life I will do the best at making you happy as well, without loosing myself. I don’t mind making some sacrifices, for loved ones in my life, just don’t ask me to stop being me and to start being “Normal.”
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Holly posts batman, & I am trapped at a hotel not in a good way
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Apr 3, 2012 6:10 pm
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So I have been MIA for a few days and I am greeting with over 200 new post. Ok, I am not going to read all of them. No, shit, right.
Right now I am trapped in a hotel, but not in a good way. I have been sick with a fever since Sunday. On Sunday morning I woke up feeling like crap. So, I took a couple of pills for that kinda thing and went on my merry little way. I had plans, I wasn't going to let a little cold get in my way. So a I took my friend as promised to her first Hockey game. At first I was doing alright the by the end of the first period, I was greeted with nausea that wouldn't go away. I spent most rest of the game, trying not to think about throwing up. Then on the way home that was the longest 30 minute ride ever. So yesterday I spend most of the time in bed nursing my 102 fever. Then of all days my husband has to be on his period, he picks the time when I have been the sickest I have been in years.
What about the hotel, yeah, I am getting to that. So this week I am having repair work done to my condo. Today there were some environmental company there getting rid of a wall that has asbestos. So at the moment my condo is an environmental hazard zone. Yea, for me. So I am stuck here at a hotel nursing my fever that has went down. So now it is only 101, and the chills have dissipated
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